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This memorial website was created by Carla Hannibal in memory of her son, Rory Landon Adams aka "Scooter" born on June 07, 1989 who was murdered, on her birthday April 13, 2006 at the age of 16. He will never be forgotten our love for him will live in  our hearts forever. We pray that the boy who took his life will receive his just reward. 
Scooter I often wonder what you would be doing if you were here. I wonder if you would still want your braids or if you would wear an afro. I wonder if you would still have the same girlfriend. I wonder if you would do that silly smirk as you walked down the aisle to get your diploma. You see you would have  graduated this year. And you would have celebrated your 18th. Instead I get to celebrate the 1st year anniversary of your death on my 50th birthday. I miss you so much Son and will  always wonder what if? Mom 1-24-07


LIGHT A CANDLE OR LEAVE A TRIBUTE WITH YOUR THOUGHTS!
Please light a candle or leave a tribute to my son, you can't know what it means to me to read the words of people who have crossed paths with Rory. Some I know some- I don't. Every single word means so much. And sometimes when I am feeling low I come to this site and it brings me comfort. You see I can never forget. 

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today? 
(Author Unknown)




Precious Son
by Joy Curnutt 
God, I know you gave your precious Son
To give us life with You.
But I didn't want my son to leave,
Cause he was precious too.
We all are precious in your eyes
And all to you return.
I know my son will not come back,
And I still have much to learn.
Our time on earth is for learning,
And when our lessons are through,
Our spirit chooses the time we leave,
And we come back to you.
My precious son is with you,
And there will be a day,
That I too will leave this earthly place,
And you will light my way.
I know your arms will be open,
And I will have a smile,
To see my God and precious son,
I will then become Your child.


I keep reminding everyone, not that you died, but that you lived, and that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget. Love Mom


Chiseled in Stone
You don't know about sadness
until you face it alone.
You can't know about lonely
until the love of your Son's name
is chiseled in stone.
Now standing beside a grave site
so alone
yearning for the love you have known.
Such pain now grips your heart
because from them, you are now apart.
Sweet memories still flood your mind
of sharing with them, all the good times.
But not all hope is gone for us
For one day, Scooter again I will see
In heaven there will be no more tears,
only Happiness & Love through the years
of all God's eternity. (Author Unknown) 
                                     

A Mothers Pain
You see me smiling.
What you don't see is that I am screaming behind that smile.
You see me go on with everything....work....groceries.....life in general.
What you don't see is that it takes every ounce of energy
I have just to breathe.
You see me alone with my thoughts.
What you don't see is me talking to Him
You see me say "I am fine".
What you don't see is the huge hole in my heart that can never be filled.
You see me and think "she's back to normal".
What you don't see is that there is no normal for me anymore.
You see me and think "Oh my God I hope this never happens to me"
What you don't see is that as much as I long for you to
understand me... I hope this never happens to you either.
You see me joking and laughing with others and think she
must be gettin over what has happened.
What you don't see is that I can never forget, nor would I want to,
you don't get over the loss of a child.
You see me sad and don't know what to say so you keep going.
What you don't see is all I really want is for you to ask how
I am doing, really, and give me a hug.
You see that life goes on.
What you don't see is on April 13th, 2006 that the life I had will
never be the same .
You see that I am strong...... do not be deceived.
What you don't see is that I am weak and weary. somedays "I am 6 feet from the edge".
What you see is a mask....a lie. The mask helps you cope with me
and me cope with myself.
What you don't see is the raw sometimes unbearable pain.
You don't see me being unable to breathe.
What you don't see is my despair. You don't see me screaming to
heaven for God to give my son back.
What you don't see you could never understand anyway unless you
walk a mile in my shoes.... God Forbid.



This was written by Tessa Jackson who lost her child too. Oh how true these words are:

Sometimes I grieve so deeply that I can hardly breathe
One look at your photograph and the pain begins to ease
Sometimes I grieve so softly that it hardly hurts at all
One look at your photograph and the pain begins to call
No matter how I grieve for you, one thing you will always find
Is day or night, heavy or light, you're always on my mind


Unless you have lost a child, no you don’t understand my pain, so please do not say so.

Event’s such as weddings, anniversaries, holiday, birthdays, and other events and gatherings are incredibly hard to deal with, and may be for months, years, possibly forever. Never judge, or become impatient. New traditions are often made, as the old ones are too hard to continue on with. Some may choose to not celebrate at all.

The day that your loved ones child died, the parents life as they knew It died too. Life will never be the same for the family, especially for the parents, so don’t expect It too be.

Grief is an individual process. There is no right or wrong way. No time limit, and the grieving parent will never get over it.


Their child may have passed away, but they are still that child’s parent. (Author Unknown- But I couldn't have said it better myself!)




A MILLION WORDS WON'T BRING YOU BACK
WE KNOW BECAUSE WE'VE TRIED
NEITHER WILL A MILLION TEARS
WE KNOW BECAUSE WE CRIED
YOU LEFT BEHIND OUR BROKEN HEARTS
AND HAPPY MEMORIES TOO
BUT WE NEVER WANTED MEMORIES
WE ONLY WANTED YOU (Author Unknown)




I close my eyes I open my mind
I think of things yet to come
one day I will see
the face of my son
One day he will be back in my arms
Until that day Will come to be
I close my eyes
And dream a dream
of my son,
my angel in heaven 
I miss you and dream of you 
(Author Unknown) 


Yes, Scooter I will always wonder.
Mom
When God calls...
When GOD calls little children
to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
the wisdom of His Love.
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world
seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps GOD tires of calling
the aged to His fold.
So He picks a rosebud
before it can grow old.
GOD knows how much we need them,
and so he takes but a few
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult
Still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be "Good-bye".
So when a little child departs,
we who are left behind
Must realize GOD loves children,
Angels are hard to find.

~Author Unknown~
 
Feelings 

by Joy Curnutt
I feel like I've just existed
And now it's been a year.
I don't know how I've lived and breathed
Without you being here.

I know you lived your lifetime
As short as that seems to me,
But the pain in my heart is still so great,
Yet I know your spirit is free.

At times I think I hear you
The thoughts come to my mind.
I struggle for the sound of your voice,
But your voice I cannot find.

Yet you come to me in many ways
So I know you did not die,
You want to tell me that you're close,
And to please stop asking Why.

Our lives on earth seem all too brief,
Or brief as it seems to me.
But where you are is forever,
God calls that Eternity!
 
The moment that you died,
Our hearts split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
We often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon our cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
We do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
We hold you tightly within our hearts,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.
For those who still have their sons,
Treat him with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and he is not there. 
 
A million times I've needed you,
A million times I've cried,
If love could have saved you dear,
You never would have died.
Things we feel most deeply,
Are the hardest things to say,
My dearest ..Rory.. I loved you,
In a very special way.
If I could have one lifetime wish,
One dream that could come true,
I'd pray to God with all my heart,
For yesterday and you. 
 
How splendid it would be,
If you were here to share it with your family.
But God had other celebrations in mind,
For you today.
God thought they were important,
So He took you away.
The memories are vivid,
As this special day arrived.
And all our hearts and souls,
Remember you with pride.
The loss of you still hurts us,
But the memory lingers there,
In that space that feels so empty,
That space that you still share.
The tears will flow, the heart will ache,
In wishing you were here,
Oh, those memories ..Rory..
There is no way to greet you,
But there is no more pain to bear.

If I had all the world to give,
I’d give it, yes, and more,
To hear her voice, see her smile,
And greet her at the door.
But all I can do, dear Brother
Is go and tend your grave,
And leave behind tokens of love
To the best mother God made.
I like to think when life is done,
Wherever heaven may be,
She’ll be standing at the door
Up there to welcome me.
 
 He left us quietly,
His thoughts unknown,
But left us a memory,
We are proud to own;
So treasure him Lord,
In Your garden of rest,
For when on earth,
He was one of the best.
It is lonely here without you, 
we miss you more each day,
For life is not the same to me,
Since you were called away.
If I could have one lifetime wish,
One dream that could come true,
I would pray to God with all my heart,
For yesterday and you.
 
Please, God, forgive a silent tear,
A fervent wish my son was here,
There are others, yes we know,
But he was ours, we loved him so,
Dear God, take a message,
To our child in heaven above,
Tell him how much we miss him,
And give him all our love.
 
What we'd give if we could say,
Hello, Scooter, in the same old way;
To hear your voice, and see your smile,
To sit with you and chat awhile,
So if you who have a Son,
Cherish him with care,
For you'll never know the heartache,
Till you see his vacant chair.
 
 Scooters Life is a beautiful memory,
His death is a silent grief;
He sleep's in God's beautiful garden,
In sunshine of perfect peace, 
we miss him oh so much,
But realize God knew best,
He let me have him a few short years,
Then gently bid him rest.
 
It's not so long since you've been gone,
But in our hearts you still live on,
Our family chain is broken,
And nothing is the same,
We mention your name,
And speak of you often,
God bless you ....
You are not forgotten.
 
So many things have happened,
Since you were called away,
So many things to share with you,
Had you been left to stay,
Every day in some small way,
Memories of you come our way,
Though absent, you are ever near,
Still missed, loved, and always dear
 
If we had all the world to give,
We'd give it, yes, and more,
To hear his voice, see his smile,
And greet him at the door.
But all we can do, dear Scooter,
Is go and tend your grave,
And leave behind tokens of love,
To the best Son God made.
 
Though your smile is gone forever,
And your hand we cannot touch,
Still we have so many memories,
Of the ones we loved so much.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part,
God has you in His keeping,
We have you in our hearts

Click here to see Rory Adams's
Family Tree
Tributes and Condolences
Happy Birthday   / Dorothy (Sister)
I miss you brother. You may be gone but will never be forgotten. I love you
Today  / Carla Hannibal (Mother)
Son my darling baby boy it's been 5 years today that you were taken away. I will always love you. Not a day that goes by I don't think of you and sometimes it brings me to tears even now. I don't know why you had to go but I wish I could bring you ba...  Continue >>
My love   / Rachel Dodd (Friend)
Hi Rory it just gets harder overtime! I still miss you everyday and I still wish things were different but I love you all the same. 4 years now I can't belive it. Just yesterday we were remanising about elementary school and how bad we were! But toda...  Continue >>
A Prayer for Rory   / Jonaneice Herbert (Cousin)
23rd Psalm The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:He leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul:He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.Yea though I walk through t...  Continue >>
And, God's eye is on the sparrow   / Marchell
How sweet it is to have known a life that was taken than to have never known the life. Carla you were blessed to bring life into this world. How fortunate you were to have been given Rory for a little while and Rory was given you his whole life....  Continue >>
Uncle Terry died today  / Carla Hannibal (Mom)    Read >>
Still miss you man...  / Westley Stellete (Friend)    Read >>
The Brighter Side Of Darkness  / Ken (None)    Read >>
Love & Hate  / Nadine Price (Girlfriend)    Read >>
Level 20  / Rayford Adams (Youngest of the three )    Read >>
My Strength  / Nadine Price (Girlfriend)    Read >>
Happy Birthday  / Carla Hannibal (Mother)    Read >>
Thinking of you  / Nadine Pierce (Girlfriend)    Read >>
I miss you  / Nikki Or Alex Adams-Carr (Older Sister )    Read >>
Hi, Its been a while  / Tiffini Campbell (Elementary Classmate )    Read >>
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Rory Landon Adams -Sunrise-June 6 1989 Eleven pounds and 3 ounces
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